For those not aware today’s blog title means I am 7 days past a 3 day transfer. That means today my little ones finish the implantation process and tomorrow the placenta cells start to release HCG into my blood. This then takes a few days to get strong enough to show when I test. Assuming all these timings are correct, what I am therefore not quite clear on is how I meet ladies who got a positive test 6dp3dt (and carried on testing and got their BFP (big fat positive) on test day? Are their embys just marvellous little geniuses already and ahead of the game? Is it just a fluke? Whatever the case I am not tempted to test early.. I’ve always been good at sticking out until test date. I actually don’t even have a test kit in the house as yet!
So far I’m holding out ok. I am feeling quietly positive and optimistic. It is in God’s hands. Saying that I felt this way at this point in my FET and look what happened there. But that was clearly not our time, and now so much is different, we’ve given this go all we possibly could have done, and it feels like that should pay off. I’ve had some very slight cramping at times, my boobs are a bit bigger and heavier.. But I’ve been resolutely not symptom spotting. So much can be down to the drugs just as much as it could be positive signs.
I think my week of rest last week really did me good. Today I woke up about 8am with no alarm, and was wide awake and full of cheeriness and looking forward to getting on with my day. This is like the polar opposite of my normal morning self… (“Just one more snooze.. Surely it can’t be time to get up yet… Ugh… Don’t talk to me until I’ve at least had a cup of tea and about half an hour has passed…”), OH actually said to me, “who are you and what have you done with my bunkle?” *
This weekend we were in London with friends. Yesterday we ate at a fabulous Michelin starred Indian restaurant. We had the tasting menu and the food was delicious (all except the pudding which contained both rose and pistachio, neither of which I’m a fan of). They also made a very cool non alcoholic berry cocktail!
I came across a TED talk today that really resonated – The Pace of Modern Life vs Our Cavewoman Biochemistry by Dr Libby Weaver. The trying to do everything to make everyone happy is something I know I can suffer from. It has an interesting part about progesterone, and how because often we are so stressed in our lives our body doesn’t make enough for us to then successfully get pregnant. I’d say it’s worth a watch. I know these last couple of months when Ive been working reduced hours, I have felt just SO much better in myself with less stress in my life. It’s like discovering who I am again. I’m so happy it’s something I decided to ask my work for especially during this treatment and so grateful they were able to accommodate it.
It’s back to work tomorrow for me after having had last week off. I’m partly happy to get back to routine and it will bring Saturday and test date around much quicker, but partly I just can’t be arsed with all the crap there will no doubt be to deal with! But hey ho…..
6 more sleeps!
* “Bunkle” is somehow the pet name I’ve ended up with… Just don’t ask!! It’s odd I know, and sometimes I think how can I even answer to that, but at the same time I also like it (just not in public… Why can’t he remember not to say it in public?!?)